What happened to my high?

Is it just me or does anyone ever go to church or some worship service and you get caught up in everything.  You forget for those couple of hours all the pain, doubt and uncertainty that life has been dealing you.  You praise God, genuinely, sincerely, enthusiastically.  You sing, dance, pray maybe even speak in tongues.  You walk out thinking you can conquer the world.  You are filled with faith, hope, conviction, passion, determination.  You name it!  Devil look out cause I’m ready to do battle and win!!!

Then just like that, you see or hear something that tugs on your heart.  It gets you in the one place that is so vulnerable, so fragile, your one Achilles’ heel. And all the wind is sucked out of you.  Your eyes become glassy as you try to hold back tears.  You begin reciting everything you just heard.  Surely you can get that fire back.  Is this a test? Is the enemy getting nervous because you are proclaiming victory? Is God trying to see if what you did in service will live past the benediction?

That’s me right now. But God you said in your word that I shall live and not die.  You said no weapon formed against me shall prosper. You said you would do exceedingly and abundantly above all that I could ask or think.  You said that if I ask anything in Your name according to Your will that the Father may be glorified then You would do it.  You said if I ask and believe that I would receive.  You said that all things are working together for my good because I love You and have been called according to your purpose.

Even as I write these truths, yes truths… I am slowly getting the fire back. May need to repeat a few more times but God I say these truths because they remind me that You never fail, You are always faithful and You never lie.  These are truths.  I stand on the truth of God’s word.  Though my feelings and my natural eye are confused and don’t understand, Your spirit lives in me and rejoices because You have wonderful plans for me.  Plans to prosper and not harm. You have an expected end for me! Your spirit reminds me that Surely this shall end and my expectation shall not be cut off.

I speak life and life more abundantly.  I speak peace, the peace that surpasses all understanding.  I speak restoration like in 2 Kings 8:6. And I cry out like Peter, Lord, Save Me!

Where is my high? It never left.  I was distracted and needed to regain my focus.


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